Do you believe it is possible to fall in love with a person you have never met face to face?
I don't know that I ever put too much thought into that. My online dating history is based primarily on initial physical attraction - if I like the way they look in their profile pic, then I will look closer. That's how the entire system works. It's Pinterest for dating. I do think that I am an anomaly online in that I answer every message that I receive. That sometimes gives men the wrong impression, but I'm always quick to make it clear if I'm not interested in them, in as kind a way as I can. I've messaged men and have been completely ignored and it's a terrible feeling, I don't want to be the one to make someone else feel like that.
I was still recovering from a big ole dose of man reality. I had my profile hidden. I was sad, disenchanted, and didn't hold out much hope. More out of boredom than anything, I decided to bring my profile out of hiding. I began receiving messages almost immediately. One of them was a funny response to my profile headline. I love funny so I messaged this one back. Understand that this was purely for entertainment purposes. I was neither looking, nor at all interested in putting my heart out there and being hurt again. Of course I would eventually, but not yet.
From the first day this man messaged me, he made me laugh out loud. I would wait, refreshing my page, for his replies. Literally from the time I opened my eyes in the morning, until I closed them at night we would be in contact. Any topic. When I wasn't reading his messages or typing my own replies, I was thinking about him.
Did I mention that I didn't know what he looked like?
He did send me a photo and in a dumb-ass move when I was mass purging my inbox, I accidentally deleted it....and then proceeded to empty out my deleted items box before I realized what I had done. Ugh. Of course I asked for another one. Having a memory that has seen it's better days, I really couldn't remember what he looked like. He kept putting it off, I'm sure, because he was certain that I wouldn't find him attractive. But that didn't matter at this point.....did it?? I mean, I was crazy about this guy. Smitten. Falling hard and fast. Would it matter what he looked like? Was I that shallow?? Honestly, I was afraid that I was. He knew what I looked like, because my online profile was loaded with photos of me.
We made plans to spend Canada Day together. I got cold feet at the last minute and those plans got cancelled. I still didn't know what he looked like. This man who meant so much to me. This man who started my days with a "Good morning beautiful" message, and sent me to dreamland with a "Goodnight sweetheart. xoxo". Were my feet cold because I was afraid of what he looked like or that I was a horrible, shallow person? Truthfully, both.
We made plans a second time. Meeting for ice cream. This time I was excited. Confident. I knew that my feelings would go beyond anything I may or may not see at DQ. Well, I was pretty sure....
The moment of truth arrived. I saw his SUV before I saw him. Closer...getting closer...Oh God, he's almost to my car...
WHEW!!! He was adorable.
Now you have to understand....we knew each other intimately, yet had never met in person. We were strangers, yet we were far from strangers at this point... I had never felt closer to anyone.
Our meeting went amazingly well. I was instantly comfortable with him, and although he was nervous, I soon put him at ease. It was so different being able to speak face to face. It was easy, fun, we had amazing chemistry. Feelings continued to grow at an unbelievable pace.
So...here we are.... 3 1/2 weeks after initial contact. We are both crazy smitten with each other...and this all happened, for me, in writing. The in-person meeting just confirmed it. I am not making any future plans. I intend to just enjoy every single day and be as present as I can. Regardless of what happens with us, this has been an amazing gift from the Universe for me. I have learned much about myself. Mainly, that when I least expect it, the most amazing things can happen.
I just may get the hang of this "life" thing yet.